Identity: Okay, so I thought I knew me but…

My blog has been weird recently. It’s having an identity crisis. Kinda like it’s owner.

Now, I guess I shouldn’t call what I’m in a “crisis” because it’s actually a really wonderful thing, self-discovery. But it’s also a place where vulnerability rears its scary head and you realize how great and how awful you are all at once. You get to look straight into the mirrors of “Who am I?” and “What am I doing with purpose?”… and then answer. Yikes.

Moving and starting life in a new place can in part be to blame for these questions. But recently, I have also realized through conversations with sweet friends that I’m not alone in this transition. I’ll be 25 in a few days. I graduated from UGA (twice). I got married to the most perfect guy for me. I have a job that I adore. And I literally think the thought “How lucky am I?” on a daily basis… So what’s the problem??

The answer: I don’t think there is one. But that doesn’t mean that I’m not learning new things about myself every single day. And that means that my identity STILL isn’t fully formed. I’m not my best me yet. And if I ever think I am… then I’ve probably got a crisis, for real.

I think often when we talk about identity, we forgot the most important part… It’s an ever-shifting, always-changing thing. I don’t just have to be Ginger-the-extrovert. Actually, Ginger-the-introvert has been popping up more and more as I increase in age.

So who am I? {Loaded question, I’m aware.}

  • I’m a wife. But not just that. I’m also my husband’s friend and cuddle buddy and eating-out-all-the-time partner-in-crime and study coach and running pal. We’ve been so blessed to spend our first year of marriage dedicated to figuring out “us”, but now it’s also fun to figure out Ginger-as-a-married-adult and Will-as-a-married-adult individually. The best part, we still like each other and are still getting to learn about each other as we grow!
  • I’m a teacher. But I also like writing and design and connecting people. Those are all things I can do in my job, but they are all things I can explore outside of my teacher bubble too. Just because I’m a teacher doesn’t mean that I can’t be a barista during the summer if I want to (and I might want to).
  • I’m a daughter of the King (literally a princess… that makes me so happy). This should’ve gone first, but I think it’s okay that it didn’t because it is so much a part of every other piece of me that (I hope) it influences the wife and teacher in me. “So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created them.” Genesis 1:27… Tale as old as time. Literally.
  • Also… I’m a lover of floral prints and stripes.
  • I’m an obsessor of details.
  • But I’m also really super forgetful.
  • I’m a gal that craves conversations and coffee… all the time.
  • I am always changing. Evolving. Learning. Growing. Adapting. Becoming more ME.

And my goal in life is for ME to become more like Christ. So I never want any of those pieces of me to go away. Because that’s who I was made to be. {Thank goodness!}

How have you seen your identity change in recent years? Has it scared you? Empowered you? Liberated you? The most freeing thing in my mind is knowing that I never have to be the exact same as I was yesterday… I can be better today!

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